I don't know what I'm doing

I have no idea what I'm doing. Living my dream? Not exactly. Being an author has been my dream since I was a kid and I did it, I published a book. Hell I published two books but this isn't exactly how I imagined it going. I don't feel like an author. I also am terrible at marketing so very few people have read my books. I didn't do this for money or fame. However, I was hoping that someone would actually read my novels... maybe someday.